Sick without the Vaccine

sick without the vaccine
I take many risks doing what I am about to do
I take advantage of my own bliss
I want everything just to be this way or that
In actuality
I just want you by my side
I just want you in my arms
I just want to taste your kiss
I just want to lose myself in your eyes

I want madly
I am such a whore
I'm naked without your touch
I'm deaf without your voice
I'm hollow without your feelings
I am such a whore
I want madly

I have refused to let go
I have held onto nothing but a single moment
I demand that fate finally act in my favor for once
In actuality
I just want you to see me
I just want you to touch me
I just want to hold you
I just want to lose myself in your eyes

I want madly
I am such a whore
I'm bleeding without your care
I'm dumb without your thoughts
I'm harassed without your cover
I am such a whore
I want madly

I promise to always be there when it's hell
I promise to hold you when it's heaven
I pray for the end of lucid tears that roll from your eyes
In actuality
I just want us to feel each other
I just want us to understand one another
I just want to cover you with my wings
I just want to lose myself in your eyes

I want madly
I am such a whore
I'm daft without your restraint
I'm lost without your light
I'm guilty without your judgement
I am such a whore
I want madly

I always look out for you when you least expect me to
I always care for you before I care for myself
I wish you would realize you are more than you think you are to me
In actuality
I just want you to feel safe with me
I just want you to hold onto my heart
I just want to lap up the tears that wash your porcelain cheeks
I just want to lose myself in your eyes

I want madly
I am such a whore
I'm damned without your faith
I'm cold without your warmth
I'm shunned without your praise
I am such a whore
I want madly

I figured that this would say everything
I figured quite wrong
I need to continue whether you want me to drop or keep
In actuality
I just want you to hold me
I just want you to heal me
I just want to let you experience
I just want to lose myself in your eyes

I want madly
I am such a whore
I'm losing without your cheer
I'm crippled without your health
I'm slow without your vigor
I am such a whore
I want madly

I repeat myself to the point of silence
I repeat all I've said in a different fashion
I await the sign that shows me that you care enough
In actuality
I just want a body to call my shrine
I just want a mind to share my thoughts with
I just want to hear my name escape your cherry lips
I just want to lose myself in your eyes

I want madly
I am such a whore
I'm falling without your foundation
I'm blind without your sight
I'm sick without your vaccine
I am such a whore
I want madly

I sing because you love the voice
I sing when I need to be loud
I beseech a simple request of difficult love
In actuality
I just want a cheek to caress
I just want a mouth to taste
I just want to feel a new emotion
I just want to lose myself in your eyes

I want madly
I am such a whore
I'm hideous without your beauty
I'm broken without your assembly
I'm disorientated without your breath
I am such a whore
I want madly

I come to a close now
I come with you and leave you high
I expressed myself so horribly tonight that I don't deserve a thing
In actuality
I just want a cheek to caress
I just want a mind to share my thoughts with
I just want to taste your kiss
I just want us to feel each other
I just want to lose myself in your eyes

I want truly, madly, deeply
I am such a whore
Because I'm
naked
deaf
hollow
bleeding
dumb
harassed
daft
lost
guilty
damned
cold
shunned
losing
crippled
slow
falling
blind
sick
hideous
broken
disorientated
All without you, my child
I want so much, but most of all
I just want to lose myself in those eyes
Those eyes that say so little yet so much
Those eyes that sparkled when they looked at me
Those eyes that filled me with sympathy as you lay upon the floor
Those eyes that I never wanted to see turn and get on that plane

Because ever since then
My eyes were locked on that airport
Waiting to see you again
I'd die a million deaths
I'd cry a million tears
I'd traverse a million miles
If it was all just to see you

I guess what I am really trying to say is:
I miss you, and I love you.